Succulent Ramblings

I like to ramble on about my plants... and other things! My hope is to log the progress of plants and talk about my frustrations with others. So, tune in, turn on, or drop out (if you find it boring!)

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Wow, it's been awhile since my last entry!  I'm so annoyed by this new laptop.  I  can't quite figure out why it is that, as I type, suddenly, my prompt goes to a completely different spot on the page.  I have to watch it so closely - otherwise, I end up with a bunch of gobbledy-gook that I have to (grrrrrr, there it went...) deconstruct and fix...

Anyway, I had this epiphany a little bit ago that I wanted to record before I forgot it amongst all the shit I now call my life!  Ok, that was uncalled for - especially after my epiphany! 

I was bummed today.  Let's just say (so I don't have to dwell on the negativity of the last few days) that I had reason to be bummed.  So I listened to Abraham and I went on a "rampage of appreciation."  For anyone reading this who doesn't know what I mean, in spite of all the crap in my life, I made it a point to list all the things I have to be thankful for.  And, admittedly, there's plenty.  My kitties are pure, unadulterated joy.  Lucy, a pain in the ass at times, but she's mostly my love-muffin.  Mark - yeah, at times I want to kick his ass, but I love him more than life itself.  He's what keeps me here, and when I say "here", I mean in this life.  (I don't mean I'm suicidal - I just mean I'm of the belief that we go "home" when we've had enough of this shit - you know, drop dead, go to sleep & don't wake up, get cancer, however we "decide" to "go.")   Wes - the BEST brother EVER!!  Mom - my best friend, the person I feel the most simpatico to in the whole world.  Merry - we may be very different, but I love my little sis... Merry's family - Brian and his wife, Ann,  Jeremy and his wife, Kara, and that little sweetie grand-daughter of hers, Ella.  Let's see - I love my little house, I ADORE my greenhouse and my plants are my escape - they bring me utter happiness and joy.  Anyway, my point is that I had no problem listing lots and lots of things to be grateful for. 

So my epiphany came when I thought, in the scheme of things, how important (really) IS money?  (Money is our serious issue now...)  What if someone said I have a choice between my kitties, Mark, Lucy & my plants and all the money I would or could ever spend?  What if someone said, "Take just ONE of those things out of the picture and exchange it for all the money you need."  With that thought came the realization that I already have everything I REALLY want.  Now, intellectually and with my knowledge of the universal law of attraction, I know that I don't HAVE to make that choice.  But it now feels different knowing that I have the things that are the most important to me and that money, the SECONDARY thing, would be nice, but is far less important than the "stuff" I already have.  ZING!  I get it!  No, I've GOT it!  I'm richer than anyone has a right to be!!  Life is, well, a little challenging right now, but I've got the things that bring joy and, really, isn't that what's important?  Thank you, universe!